Running Away From Reality

Last post before I come back from Penang after a week's time. Dunno i m allowed to eat the famous penang laksa this time...

Today was supposed to be a sad day. Oh well I guess it was pretty sombre enough... But I dunno why I feel like an idiot today.

Reasons?
1. Dunno why after I took photo with certain people, I froze n dunno wat to say and feel like an idiotic dummy standing with a camera in one hand.

2. There's a few people in IS and Ordinary Science that I'm just not brave enough to go n ask to take photo with. Wish I were a bit braver... If next time when I suddenly wanna take photo with you, you r the one I'm talking bout nw!

3. An embarrassing scene happen today when I took photos with certain ppl... So much for good last impression... I'm in a self-delusion whirlpool again... Help!

4. I dun like ceremonies like these. I'm scared of functions, gatherings of any kind!

5. My people phobia is still here...

6. Sorry to say this. But when people come and congratulate me n shake my hand, I totally resembled a stupid puppet sticking out my hand with a wooden smile plastered on my wooden body... Swt...

Holiday, have mercy... Please come and bring my sorrow away!

Updated version:
I thought by playing some computer games this afternoon can make me erase some of the bitter memories in my head. It worked, at least for a while. But the second I visited my Facebook acc and see those photos again, they all come back to haunt me again...

The best song that can describe my submerged emotions is Breathe Easy by Blue.

Cruel to the eye

I see the way he makes you smile

Cruel to the eye

Watching him hold what used to be mine

Why did I lie

Why did I wander where to fly

Ooh why Ooh why

And I.........can't breathe easy

I cant sleep at night

Until your by my side

No I........can't breathe easy

I cant dream you had another dream without you lying next to me

There's no way

Curse me inside

For every word that caused you to cry

Cursed me inside

I wont forget, no I wont baby I

Don't know why(Don't know why)

I left the one I was looking to find

Ooh whyOoh whyWHY

I.........can't breathe easy

I cant sleep at night

Until your by my side

No I........can't breathe easy(Breathe easy)

I cant dream you had another dream without you lying next to me, there's no way

No I.........can't breathe easy

I cant dream you had another dream without you lying next to me, there's no way

Out of my mind

Nothing makes sense anymore

I want you back in my life

That's all I'm breathing for

Ooh I......................Tell me why................

Ooh Tell me why

I cant dream you had another dream without you lying next to me, there's no way

no no no no no

I................can't breathe easy

I cant sleep at night

Until your...by my side

YeahI...................Can't breathe easy

No I...

I can't dream you had another dream without you lying next to me, there's no way

I guessed I always like to cheat, lie, decieve, and delude my real feelings. All the emotions can stop flowing and I dun have a friggin' idea how to stop 'em!!! Arrrgghhh!!! Help!!!